Lord. Gusto ko lang po maging masaya.

cause I’ve thrown away my lucky stars
and my wishes don’t come true
I’ve been looking up to heaven while Im crying over you
cause I still miss the good times we’ve had when you were still mine
I just wonder if you need me still after all this time. :/

Care too much = You’ll get hurt.
Care less = You might loose that person!=(((

‘LOSER’..yep! This one word defines me now. I feel so lost, guilty, bad and empty! :( Sana may instant way to cure the heartaches and heartbreaks 3 Sana may makaimbento ng treatment that will instantly heal all the pains. Sana ganun lang kasimple at kadali yun, kasi ganun lang din naman kadali nawala sa akin yung 2 taong mahalaga sa buhay ko e. Y things have to be so complicated? Sabi nila Simple lang daw ang buhay tayo lang daw yung gumagawa ng way para maging komplikado ito. Should I agree with that? kung hindi ko naman din sinadya at ginustong mangyari to?! Damn! Sobrang hirap! Sobrang hirap sa feeling na nakakasakit ka pero hindi mo naman din yun gusto but you have no choice. Yung feeling na nakakasakit ka pero ikaw din mismo nasasaktan sa ginagawa mo.. Bat ganun? Sana hindi nalang naimbento ang LOVE para walang nasasaktan at walang umiiyak. Napapagod nadin ako , for how many years nagtangatangahan ako at nagbubulagbulagan sakanya, na kahit nasasaktan na ako nanatili ako sa tabi nya na kahit alam kong hindi ako yung kailangan nya hindi ko sya iniwan dahil mahal ko sya. Sobrang mahal ko sya! :’( And it breaks my heart kung paano nya nagagawang ipagtabuyan ako sa buhay nya ngayon. Yep! I admit! It was my fault, I said sorry and sincerely ask for his forgiveness but what he has given me was a sad GOODBYE! Andaya niya eh. pinatalo nya ako, pinatalo nya yung bestfriend nya, pinatalo nya lahat ng meron kame noon. pinatalo nya lahat sa galit niya. :’( Akala ko that moment na sinabi nyang ‘he feel the same way too’ akala ko maipagmamayabang ko na sa buong mundo na MY DREAM HAS FINALLY CAME TRUE! But unfortunately I was wrong, really wrong. ‘mahal din kita’ SUCKS! with out actions It is empty. magkakaroon lang to ng meaning if that person fights for you till the end. fights for you coz he truly loves you. Ayoko na! And no matter how i tried to look at it’s brighter side I just end up saying ‘Oo nga.. Hindi talaga kami bagay, He deserve the best. And Hindi ako yung taong yun’ …

I don’t know what to write I just wanna blog!

Life is ironic. The one who pushed you away before is now the person who’s trying to be part of your life again. But yea! people do change! and time heals! i learned a lot! Stupidity is no longer my friend! Hindi na yung taong kayang isakripisyo yung sariling kaligayahan just to see him happy. Hindi ko alam kung paano.. Pero oo masaya ako at narealize nya yung mali niya, and he apologized. Kahit anong sabi pa nya na nagbago na sya at isa lang ang hnd nagbago na ako pa din daw yung bestfriend nya. parang ang hirap ng maniwala, may lamat na kasi e. At isa pa nasanay na ko na wala na sya sa buhay ko kaya kaya ko ng maging masaya nang wala sya=)) Imma better person now. Pero parang ang bato na ng puso ko! HAHAHA! So will wait for that person na makakapagpalambot ulit ng puso ko! Echos! Hahaha! korni ko talaga XD